Within yourself, you can experience a thousand and one doubts. You wonder if you will ever succeed in liberating yourself from attachments. You also wonder if your talents and intellectual abilities will let you stand out above the rest. Your life suddenly becomes more complicated. The ambivalence of your emotions is particularly puzzling. You can love and hate the same person. You can wish and want to live and die, to help and hurt, to get close to others and run away from them, or to believe and not to believe, all at the same time. You are going through what is called an identity crisis.
You need to understand and accept yourself. You also need a model of faith, someone you would want to “turn out like,” who stands firm and peaceful in his faith. And so you start to look for that person.
So many times in the Scriptures you read of God’s invitations which were refused.
Freedom allows us to choose rules and make plans which at times put God aside and His beautiful plans for us. In our search for the fullness of life, in our search for a model of faith, we often fail to take God as our model. We would rather look to TV personalities, movie stars and our own attachment to illusions.
Oftentimes we fail to understand that is is only precisely by putting our selfish interests aside that we can truly posses the one really valuable wealth in life, fullness of life in God. This is the only human plan that bears witness to that great plan of God which he started constructing since time began.
God makes the difference in our life.
Your perception of yourself is a very vital index of how you will project yourself. There are times when you find it irritating to project the real you because of the pressures involved. It is difficult for you to admit that you are a creature of pretense, wearing a mask and playing the part successfully. Your first attempt is to become a full-pledged member of your peer group, to which you are inclined to conform, propelling yourself to become a part and a replica of it.
When will the real you stand up in all its uniqueness?
In this world, there is no one else exactly like you. You own your thoughts, dreams, hopes and fears. You can make it possible for all of you to work at your best interests. You can courageously and hopefully look for the solutions to the things about you that puzzle you and find ways to know more about yourself. You have the tools to survive, the will to changes, to be close to others, and to be productive. You own yourself; you are you.
Be patient toward all that is unsolved in yourself and try to love the questions themselves. Do not seek the answers that can’t be given because you would not be able to live them. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will, gradually, without noticing it, live some distant day into the answers.
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